I am writing this post as a reminder to myself that never again will I feel bad about what I do all day. I know I'm not the only Mom/Wife that sometimes feels guilty about getting "nothing" done all day at home. The last few days, God has opened my eyes to a realization: I'm pretty good at what I do! As the previous posts have shared, we have been through a round of the sickies here at Chez Emerson (the Emerson home). It started with Caden, then I got sick, and now it seems Brett is taking his turn. Lord willing, Corban will be spared.
So as I spent lots of time by myself in bed yesterday, I had lots of time to think. This turned into lots of time for Jesus and Satan to battle control of my heart and mind. I had moments of "I don't want to be in Togo anymore" to moments of "I know this is Satan attacking my family". Several times throughout all these trials (beginning with Caden's middle of the night illness), I have heard the Lord say to me, "
I will fight for you; you need only to be still."Through the walls of our bedroom, I heard my sweet husband trying to be mommy and wife for a day. I don't think he wants to do it again. ;) I asked him this morning if I could tell him something that I didn't want him to take the wrong way. I said, "after yesterday, I realized I'm pretty good at what I do." He replied with, "I think you are great at what you do."
I am so thankful that Brett and I have each other as helpmates in our family. I am thankful for a husband who respects who I am and appreciates the job I do as a mommy. I am thankful for God showing me these truths amidst a time of difficulty. This may have been the yuckiest Valentine's Day for us...but it has turned out to be one of the most memorable.